I watched porn more as a way to form my identity than to masturbate-I thought, 'I see myself in this.' Specifically, I came across Asian-American trans adult star (and TV star) Helen Wong, and I would read her blog to figure out how I might want to live my life. Most of the exposure I had to trans experiences was either through somewhere like Jerry Springer or in pornography, and transgender adult film stars were the closest thing to representation I could find. I always knew I was trans, but growing up in the late 90s and early 2000s meant an adolescence with hardly any representation of trans people in the public eye.
